I’m having a hard time with my down time.

It isn’t that there isn’t enough for me to do. My house is full of books I haven’t read and chores that I haven’t done. Staring at me. Mocking me.

I kid. But in all seriousness there is more than enough to keep me entertained before work. I just find relaxing…anxiety-inducing. I like to be busy. If I’m not actively working on the things I need to do, then I’m actively stressing about the fact that I’m not doing the things that I need to do while avoiding them like the plague.

But here, in a quiet house, without homework to do or stress about not doing, I’m a little bit lost.

I need to learn how to be productive and fulfilled rather than just busy.